...unintentionally abandoning this site! >.< I don't know why but something just isn't motivating me to come online anymore. I wish I knew why...I draw a lot less frequently than I used to as well. I guess I got tired of trying to keep up with every message, every picture getting submitted to my group, every notification...it would be one thing if I had all the time in the world but my classes keep getting harder and harder and now I'm having to do an INSANE amount of reading for two of them. In addition to this I frequently get caught up eating up free time with other (less productive) things like games and videos online. Sometimes Its hard to know whether to stay or go from this site and what ends up happening is I get stuck in limbo where I'm not ever really on much but yet on enough that I haven't really left.
I wish I could figure out why it is I can't get myself to draw much anymore. It isn't because I'm sick of it or because its too hard or too anything other than time consuming. I have improved my drawing quality over the past couple years since I first started out, but the problem is that it also results in spending more and more time paying attention to careful details to make the finished product more smooth and complete. Thus my drawing now take at least 3 times as long to complete. I actually have one complete drawing and another one I am in the process of coloring and shading I have yet to upload. I will try to get these up soon.
I'm not entirely sure of my future on deviantart is going to look like. I do not, at least at this time, appeal to the idea of leaving altogether. Nor do I like the idea of only showing up once a month just to 'check-up' when of course my initial thought will always be "yep, everything is exactly the same as I left it last month..." I think I will try to make one more effort to become a 'regular' once again the way I used to be. Maybe I will be able to find some of the friends I used to talk to all the time, and hopefully make some new ones. Deviantart has been the gateway to so many new things in my life in my recent history, and it is because of this that makes it invaluable to me. Without it, I would have never found Tiffani, nor would I ever have discovered the furry fandom and talked to so many fellow sonic fans and artists that have given me plenty of praise and constructive feedback on my work.
My membership is on the verge of expiring, and whether I renew it will depend on whether I actually make an effort to be an active member of the site again. Otherwise there is no point in paying money to have full access to all the features on a site that I don't even take the time to visit and to upload my work among other things. I may even post a poll to see how many active watchers I still have questioning whether I should stay or go. I don't expect many, if anyone to say that I should, but it might give me a feel for how many watchers and friends are still out there and whether or not they miss me being around.
I'll try to get an updated journal posted soon!
Tails4evr is feeling unsure, but is also hopeful that he will be back to stay before long
"Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time."
- Thomas Edison